What the hell happened again?

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 01:30:16 GMT

chillin with heidi.
this summer is great! no more school, friends, parties, good ol times.

School Skippers!

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 13:31:28 GMT

So me and Sarah decided not to go to school today, and were so friggin bored. We might go fishing in a lil bit. HOORAY! But shit i hvae to pay for my Grad night tickets so i think that ill be stopping in at the end of the day.

Graduation is so close. YESSSS!!!!!

Prom is in 2 weeks and 2 days. Me and NIcky are having an after party at the Residence Inn. That should be a fun time. We got a penthouse for the room, which means its a double floor, its pimp. Not too big but its nice. There were like 50 people invited already. Hopefull things wont get too crazy.

Alright I must get back to skipping now.

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 21:19:42 GMT

I dont know how much more i can take of this. One minute your so happy and having fun and then the next your a totally different person. Your always contradicting yourself. What the hell? No one gets it. You should be lucky, but I guess your just taking too much for granted. You dont know what ya got till its gone. You'll figure that out soon enough.

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 23:28:50 GMT

Got a cell phone yesterday.

Wish I was in Florida... but im in NYC. Its much colder here.

Reunion tomorrow... much fun. The family is great.

Thats all folks.

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 16:30:44 GMT

YEA.... life is good.

New York City tomorrow!

CHOW!

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 23:07:46 GMT

So Hailey Jean was born last month. She is too cute. I love her to pieces.

Nothing else has really happened. Well, nothing that I feel like typing right now.

Work at CVS. its fun.

Today is 7 months for me and Joe. (happy face)!

Going to NYC for spring break, gonna get my prom dress. Nicky is coming with me, she still has to ask though. Its the family reunion, theres gonna be like 150 people there, its insane.

This school year is almost over. Then Buff state for Psychology and Social Work.

Today im going to Tamers surprise party.

Pieces People

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 20:51:02 GMT

chillin with sarah. then who knows?

Christmas in 12 days. holler.

Schools retarded.

You always gotta be the one that gets the apology, not this time.

The Shopping list is almost done.
Mon and Pops-done
Nick- done
Sarah-done
jimmy-done
vinny-done
joe- very done
luisa and ali- not done
katie-not done

haha some of the shit people come up with nowadays. there lame....

yep, its a wrap

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 22:14:42 GMT

dont wanna talk to anyone about anything anymore, because people are RUDE, like to act one way towards people and then all nice to their faces. i guess that thats just the way things work though huh? Im sorry I dont have the perfect boyfriend and you all do, but that doesnt give you ANY room to go and be rude and talk shit.

Thats it.

Word to CUZ TYLER!!!

I love Joseph Ciffa!!! problem????

Just think about what you're going to say and how it may hurt someone.

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 02:00:55 GMT

Sammi gets freaky with Parle! haha

At sarahs right now. we just ate food, yummy!

If i was a black niggy i wud be very respectful to the whites because they brought me here! ok i wud feel very greatful on thanksgiving if sumone asked me what i was thankful for that wud be the first thing to come out of my mouth. if it wasnt for white peeps then niggys wud not have half the shit they have now a days. ok they need to stop trying to take over the world. they need to step down and realize that all the shit they have is cus of the whites. yeah u can say well we wudnt have sum shit cus of the niggys who invented it but the only way they invented it is cus of our (the whites) resources over herrr in the americas. so yeah! We wud of eventually invented all of the stuff that they did anyways. So they need to think before they trry and disrespect a white peep cus if it wasnt for us they wud stll be in afriKa naked all the time dancing around like animals with no future or life speaking in their no sense voodoo and getting eaten by lions. they nedd to re-evulate themselves and start thanking the whitees. I meen really wouldnt it be kool to have a slave? IF slavery never ended then most people wud just think its the way of life. Im sure now a days we wudnt beat them or ne thing i meen if I had one i wud give her or him their own room and stuff. but my house better be clean. School maybe but hey its a maid that doesnt get paid. so thinking with the holidays in mind (especially thanksgiving) think about what the balcks should really be thankful for. - *Suzie* JUST KIDDING!( sarah wrote this)

hahaha Sarahs lil sister just fouunf a sex toy in her moms closet. A romeo delight! Halarious. I twas funny. she started ca;;ing us telling us that she found something and she didnt know what the hell it was. hahahaha.

We picked up our last camera from prom. these are the funniest pictures. they are great! too bad we waited 6 months to get them.

peace people.

Nicky dudes

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 14:05:22 GMT

Went to Nicks yesterday. That was good. We had fun just hanging out nad then she drove me home in her little rental ford focus. Shes taking her test right now, shell pass.

Joe is still not talking to me. But he drove to Nicks yesterday to talk to her about me, drove right past my house and wouldn't come talk to me. Whatever. I didn't even do anything to him, and I tried to talk to him, so his issue now. I fell asleep on the couch and then Luisa woke me up saying something about Joe calling her phone and saying he left her a message saying that he needs to talk to her about me. And then something about how nothing os going on between them, and they were going to meet to talk. Or something I just sorta mumbled and went up to bed. He'll get over what ever I did? It's all good.

Tuesdays always are sucky.

People seem so distant lately. Or maybe its just me?

I love you!

go to the bathroom. kyle get the soap out

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 15:39:21 GMT

Nicky needs to hurry up and go to the bathroom. Im getting aggitated.

KYLE GET THE SOAP OUT!! what the hell was that? Mrs Russo just yelled that from the other room. hahahaha, im cracking up over here.

School is so dumb. I have yet another study hall this period.Half day wed.

Tomorrow is Nicks road test. shell pass. But she gets a rental car today and hopefully her mom will let her take the car out, then we can CRUISE around. YAY!

What the hell happened again? I have NO clue. wow this weekend sucked. I got to see nick but thats about it. I was suppoesed to get my phone, but my brothers credit wasnt good enough, and it woulda ended up costing like 200. so im going to try to go with heather and see if that works a little bit better.

Well isnt that just neato.

Im rambaling.... is that how its spelled?

yea this is it

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 13:54:14 GMT

Lacey is sitting right next to me wondering why i was reading someones journal. She thought that i wasnt supposed to be. Now she is laughing and calling me a loser. Lacey is HILARIOUS!!!

Off grounding YAY!

I start work on Thursday 4-9. Not too bad, I got the job in one day. Didnt have to have a drug test or a background check.

Shit is starting again, here we go. I want to know what the hell is going on. Why do people have to be so moody and unpredictable?

Peace

your dogs

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 14:06:01 GMT

Drug test today, and then I start working. Hooray. hell yeas, i got a job in a matter of a day. sweet.

So the parents are no longer mad at me. my mom talks to me like im depressed, shes wierd. she told me that she wants me to go into counsling. i told her no and then i just made up some crap about why im so "angry" lately. so its all good. then we went to the mall and she bought me some clothes.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE ILISE PATEL!!!! yay! i love you!

I cant wait until im off grounding so i can see jojoe. monday needs to hurry the hell up and get here.

So i decided that while im grounded i am going to finish reading my book, Angels and Demons, by Dan Brown.

Mom dizz is gone for the weekend, so ill at least be able to use the phone to talk to people, and padre will let nicky come over so fun.

Kaite, Sammi, and Sarah, are all fat and can kiss my bootay!!!!! But I love em!

Wow im bored. this art projuect sucks.
There is nothing to write about.
I want to i dont know

MrsPreston said that if i get into anymore trouble then i cant play softball or go to prom, shes FAT. I HATE her. ass hole. I got another detention wed, cus i went outside for 5 min before detention started. whatever. now i have them until the 23rd.

Class is over

Shaloum

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 18:55:33 GMT

Flustered. I got caught skipping school on monday because of the nosey secretary. so now i have 7 detentions, but the good thing is im only grounded until saturday. so whatever. the principal is gay.

I am getting really aggrivated with people lately. Im not as happy as i used to be and i really dont want to be. its sad, but the cold truth. there is only a handful of people that i can actually really truly stand. And im not implying that i dont care, but that there are only those few people that i can be around without getting pissed off or irritated by them at any point. there are those people that i really do care about, but i dont know its hard to explain. and every freaking little thing that someone says or does bugs the shit out of me, its so annoying. Like, i wont express it verbally or by faces, but in my head im like " shut the hell up, your retarded".

i need to start making better choices. my parents tell me this everyday, and their right. But the choice that they want me to make about not seeing joe for a while, is one that im not going to do. he has nothing to do with me skipping school, considering i called him after i already got home. yea, he came over and coulda said no, but who would honestly do that? Im not going to end things with joe just because they want me to. How can they say " dont get us wrong we love joe, but wed prefer you dont see him for a while" in the same sentence?

Oh well.
So nick's bday is friday and i was supposed to go to applebees with her, jojoe, n jimmy. but now since im grounded. but hey it could be worse. i have no money to get her anything. but hopefully ill have a job by christmas and then i can make it up to her there.

If people are going to read other peoples notes, maybe they want to get the wording right before they go and say something. It said "stand" not "care".

"its like a whole new becky." maybe you should Panek.

Ugh

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 15:35:56 GMT

senior skip day is cancelled, cus people have BIg mouths, and gotta say shit. oh well there will be another day.

i am sexually fustrated today. its an addiction, once you get it enough- you cant get enough of it. if that makes sense. well.....

yesterday was a shitty day off. all i duid was go to nicks for like 2 hours and then go home. monday i was in bed at 7, that sucked as well.

NICKY IS FUNNY AS HELL>

she was crackin me up in the hallway. mmmmmm..... this year is going so fast, and its sad to know that the 4 years are ending, SIGH.

Tonight I have the Little kids thing I have to help with at church. Their so cute.

I need to get my Senior quote.

Those candles sell really good. I already have $84 worth sold, and I didnt bring it to church yet. You know those church folks love their candles.

Joes brother hates me now, for some strange reason. He was fine before i dont know what got into him all a sudden. Oh well, I still like em'. Hopefully he'll like me like he used to. Its prolly just a stage.

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion.

Looks like Bush may win

Random......... UGh. FUSTRATED

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 15:21:15 GMT

Yesterday was ok. I mean Halloween on a Sunday sucks though. I really didnt do much. Went to church, came home. The family came over. Went out for a lil bit with my nephew Trick-or-Treating. hes too cute. We kept scarring him all night with different masks, hes scarred for life. Then Mike and Mary came over. We were going to go Trick-or-Treating, but we decided we didnt want to. Mike put on a nun costume it was quite funny. We ended up walking to Noco, and talking there for a while. Went bakc to my house and talked till like 11. It was quite entertaining. Mary cracks me up.... with her UGLY face.

Nothing will ever beat last Halloween, so much fun throwing candy at Sammi. And Katie in seclusion. Huh Mary?

No school tomorrow.

Thursday is Senior skip day. We decided to have it cus we have a class meeting that day for how bad weve been or some crap like that.

I get my Senior pics today. Their cute, Im excited.
Yea thats is.

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 05:33:51 GMT

I am so fucking insanely worried about him right now. He scares me so much. Doesnt he know how this is affecting other people?

Why does he have to do this? Is it the only thing that truly makes him happy? It shouldn't happen to anyone. I've seen it happen before. Someone that you care about soo much deteriorate right before your eyes into a meaningless nothing, with no goals or a slight plan for life. It's not anywhere close to being normal. It doesnt only affect one person, but all the other people that care.

I feel so meaningless, worried, scared, confused, you name it.

Your actions affect more than you think....

Help him God. It seems like You're the only one that still has some type of control.... cus no one else does.

It hurts to know that you thought you made a difference, but then something happens and you find out that you didn't. An empty feeling.

Why do people have to resort to drugs to feel good, and to keep them holding on. It's insane. And to standby watching this person fade away slowly, reaching out a hand that they are blind to. Like you're invisable. Like, all the people are around you holding you up, but you don't notice.

I don't know if any of this makes sense. I must be crazy......
Does this make sense??????......

Ugh. Here comes another sleepless night. Wonderful.

wow

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 05:22:36 GMT

Your actions affect more then you think.

I am so fucking worried about him right now. Hes scares the shit out of me. Can anyone make a difference in his life?

He pushing himself too far, and one day he's going to go right off the egde.

It hurts to know that you thought you made a difference, but then something happens and you find out that you didn't. An empty feeling.

I feel so meaningless, scared, worried, confused, you name it.

Why does he do this? Is it the only way that he can really, truly be happy? I hope it doesnt come to that, ever. It shouldn't for anyone. I've seen it happen, and it isn't a good thing to watch someone you care about sooo much, slowly fade away into something so meaningless. With no goals, or a guaranteded tomorrow.

Why do people have to resort to drugs to feel good, and to keep them holding on. It's insane. And to standby watching this person fade away slowly, reaching out a hand that they are blind to. Like you're invisable. Like, all the people are around you holding you up, but you don't notice.

I wish he'd realize how many people really do care and who are worried about him.

I don't know if any of this makes sense. I must be crazy......
Does this make sense??????......

Help him God......It looks like You're the only one that still has control. It's sure as hell that no one else does.

Ugh. Here comes a sleepless night.

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 17:57:14 GMT

Boy does Sammi look so retarded today. But I do have to say that she makes a wonderful NERD! If I go out for Halloween Sat or Sun, then Im being a Pink Lady from Grease, and if Joe comes im gonna make him be a T-Bird. Fun times. I have the jacket from the movie too, so that's a plus.

School today is interesting, lots of neat costumes.....

Tomorrow I might go to a farm with sarah nicky and joe. whoever else wants to come too. Im not quite sure whats going on there though.

Tonight Im getting out of the house. No bowling though, I did that last night. Who the hell knows. Maybe a Haunted House, if I can find some money, that sure would be nice.

Im feeling kinda pissy today. Dont know why. Maybe cus its last period and I want nothing more than to be on my way home now, and to get this night started. Yay!

Katie is sitting next to me, just thought i would et everyone know that- I Love HEr to Pieces. Holler.

Wonderful Skies.......

My brother is getting married tomorrow. How exciting. Its his 2nd marriage. Shes really pretty. But i havent seen him in a while. Hes coming next friday and staying until monday. when i see him i know im gonna cry (TEAR)

Go Yankees...... yea......

Be safe.......

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 14:23:01 GMT

I cant really type to good, my hand is messed up. I got mad and punched a few lockers yesterday, and its all swollen and bruised today. Yummy.

Well we lost Sectionals. The team is so bootie. no one does anything, except the three of us. Oh well. Its over- my last year of volleyball with sammi and killa. quite tragic. we cried- it was sad.

Getting picked up by joe today. yesterday was 3 months. how exciting. i think we're bowling tonight- SURPRISE SURPRISE!! and tomorrow.

Wegan's called me up yesterday and i have an interview next wed. I just turned in my application friday, and then sara went and talked to them about me. so i more than likely have the job- 3 applications later. but im excited, i need a job, and i heard its a good place to work.

I got yelled at by Mrs. Preston last period. I was talking t o Nikcy when she walked in and she wasnt talking so I continues my convo. but then she goes " I dont appreciate you talking Mrs.Reidy when i walk into the room." I just gave her a dirty look. Then she goes " Is your work done" I said nope, in a really sarcastic voice. She got pissed and said "well, unless you would like to stay with me after school and do it, take it out." I didnt take it out, and I looked at her and was like "sorry I dont have time to waste." Then she left.

The SENIORS are getting into trouble with her lately. She doesnt like our attitudes, so we have a meeting next thursday. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! yesterday someone ordered 4 sheet cheese pizzas, a buket of wings, and a DIET pepsi, and sent it in her name, so she had to pay for it all. Of cousre we get blamed. But it was a senior, freshman, and sophmores dont gave the balls, and the juniors are too dumb and scared of her to pull that off. I think its hilarious. I cracked up when i found out. She prolly ate it all up. Sucks to have to pay for that. but the Diet pepsi killed me haha. not regular but diet for her fat ass!

GO PSYCHO People.
My names' BEcCa ReiDy and Im OuT... PeACe

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 14:42:21 GMT

yesterday, sammi g came ver, we attmepted to do her hair, but had no cap. Then Joe came over, we went and saw Nicole Islise Patel. Then went back to my house and talked in the car for a while. we had a nice conversation. He gave a blunt. Which I smoked some with jeff before school. Class is over.... Yea that too

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 14:43:49 GMT

A free-styler once said this about me and Sammi G's :
If ugly was a burger then youd be a Big-Mac.
You two ain't skinny, but you sure as hell ain't fat
My name's Rob Miller and I'm out PEACE!

Ah-hah hush that fuss. Everybody move to the back of the bus.

This weekend was great. Friday i went bowling with Joe, and this dude bowled a 300 it was pretty pimp.
Saturday I went to Fright Fest with my dear friends KT-Killa, G-Funk, and Jeff. They made me and Killa go into the Haunted house with them. Sammi was sweating her "balls" off, and Killa wanted to pee herself, while she was feriously pulling on my collar, streching it out minute by minute. She also wanted to cry. And Jeff quote " Man this rubber stuff really smells like shit." his incentive to get me and Kaite to go in was " My brother said that they have these cool aliens with jet-packs on in there". There were NO jet-packs.
Most of the rides were closed, but we managed to get on Superman, Jeff looked like he sucked in a lemon in his picture. Then we did Boomerang- which katie just called the Bangerang, and Twister. The batting cages were fun, Sammi swings with her entire body, its pretty hilarious to watch. We all took part in eatting fried dough, which they gave us this huge plate of sugar, which ened up on the great jeffery. He had grey hair.

Sunday, I had my senior pics done. the guy was kinda creep. He was telling me to be a model and shit. He was like " lets see that sexy smile", and other random tings. Major Creeper. Heather came with me and then we watched Envy. The stupid horse- VA-Poo_RIZE. Yea, kinda corny.

Now back in school, with killa playing papa roach for me! I havent heard this song in ages.

Ah bluahajfhjdhasfjksdlaaaaaahh. Scary face!

You are BEAuTifUL.

My goal in life is no longer to please anyone but myself. i dont care what other people think, and I havent for a while. People have their own opinions and Im ok with that. Think what you want. Im the happiest that I have been in a while. I have the people that I need to get me through, and its a reassuring feeling. Things with my parents are good again. My friends are amazing. I love my boyfriend.

Class is over.

To Be Continued..........

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 12:39:58 GMT

major problems with the family are occuring recently. i hate my parents. My dad is a dick, he ignores everyone and goes right to bed when he comes home from work cus "he cant stand to look at any of us". and my mom is a controling bitch, but why cant she realize that she lost control over me a while ago. Whatever.

I have my senior pics on sunday at 2. this place im going to is supposed to be really nice. hopefull they will turnout good.

sectionals wed- at kensington- everyone should come watch!

things are ok, today is friday no complaints, unless i cant go out this weekend, but im NOT staying home. they know ill just leave. Bowling league with joe tonight, Last week he bowled a 299, a point short of a perfect game. The 13th strike missed the 7 pin was left up. Oh well, he still gets a nice ring.

so when i got home from school yesterday, EVRYTHING in my room was on the floor. my mom thought that it would be cool to go through my shit and then leave it all over the floor. then she took the stuff that was on the floor before she trashed my room and put it into boxes in her room. i took them back, she was pissed. i started to clean it all up and then she came in my room and threw it all back on the floor, like the bitch that she is. she says i dont respect her, but if she cant respect me and my shit, then why do it back? shes psycho.

my dad just seculdes himself from the world. thats a REALLY good way to deal with problems!....Dick.

tues. is their 27th anniversary. we had this video wih music playing to pictures made for them last year, so were adding on to it. and getting my mom flowers and both of them gift certificates to a restuarant. but i don want to do anything......

my brother is getting married next saturday. and then visiting us for a lil bit. i havent seen him in 5-6 years. im gonna cry when i do. i miss my niece and nephew....

The teacher is yelling at me cus im not doing my art project

KISSES!

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 14:21:14 GMT

Ya, there are tons of eight graders walking around the school. There is No room for us and with them you can hardly breathe.

We got CRUSHED by Honors yesterday. But we had fun so.....

Half day tommorow and then I have a game. Hopefully, I will see Joe before the game. I know I will cus hes picking me up!

I started a scrap book last night cus i was in trouble and couldnt use the phone and extremly bored. Its really nice looking so far, but there is still so much lef to do.

peaces people.

I can’t wait to see you
Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
And it’s a shame that we got to spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same things
Over and over again
Ohh
I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keep playing in my head
Over and over again
Playing my head
Over and over again
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo
(Now that I’ve realized that I’m going down
From all this pain you’ve put me through
Every time I close my eyes I like it down
I can’t go on not loving you)
-Nelly Ft. Tim McGraw (only parts of the song)

Honors game today= LOSS

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 14:43:25 GMT

Ah ha, hush that fuss
Everybody move to the back of the bus
Do you wanna bump and slump with us
We the type of people make the club get crunk
- Oukast, Rosa PArks